Integration Notes

This is an overview of some of the things that came up this week as I processed the kriya session last weekend. It is not comprehensive. I’m only inclined to share the more culturally relevant topics, and any aspects of working with K that feel research-relevant. Some aspects, especially those too indicative of the trauma I’m processing, is kept secret.

Experiences

6/16/25  - the kriyas woke me around midnight and played through my neck, shoulders, and hips for a while in very subtle intensity. Enough to keep me awake but not some much that I had to get out of bed to accommodate the movement. These lasted approximately 90mins, then more inner communication opened up, filling in additional details for the "new memories" that came up during session. This is an unusually "large file".

6/17/25 - more kriyas though the night. It's clear this is an exceptionally large "trauma file" as they preceded some traditional PTSD symptoms associated with the events currently being processed. Lasted approximately 90mins.

6/19/25 - extremely subtle kriyas throughout the night, appearing in dreams; woke early morning with excruciating pain flaring from an old injury (an entrapped femoral nerve) associated with a trauma-versary; experienced interoception connection to various points in the brain that came with a single word association. Am I interacting with the “petals” of the sahasrara chakra? This has led me into a deep dive on the various one-letter madras historically associated there.

It took a while to find a good source for these Sanskrit letter/words, but I have arrived at javanesegraviton. Devatma Shakti Kundalini Power Swami Vishnu Tirtha.  http://archive.org/details/DevatmaShaktiKundaliniPowerSwamiVishnuTirtha.

Pages 92 and 93 are especially relevant, screenshots below:

Insights & Observations

Privacy - this came up during my session, initially felt bodily as a sort of intense need / longing for privacy. It was not mental, but physical, at least at first. I had an intense awareness of my animality and vulnerability, like there may be predators over my shoulder up in the sky who could dive bomb me any second. This is certainly related to trauma / deprivation of privacy in my past so was at first inclined to keep this to myself. But then throughout the week, it kept popping up as a theme. I saw “Privacy” (broadly defined) talked about everywhere - synchronicity or sensitization? Either way, it is clearly relevant more broadly. As such, here are some of the questions that have bubbled up as important for me, for right now, arranged by dimension:

• Physical: What does it mean to “feel” safe? What feel safe? Or unsafe? 
• Mental: Which of my answers do I wish were different and why? Where does that expectation come from, internal or external? 
• Spiritual: If knowledge / information is power, how much power (information about self) are we giving away to strangers? To faceless tech giants and other corporations? To family? To lovers and closest friends? How much are you willing to know about yourself? Notice if it feels safer to disclose to closest friends or random social media networks full of strangers.
  • How can vulnerability (when privacy boundaries are made permeable on a trial basis) also be a power? When do we feel like using it, and why? (Tănăsescu, 2022)

Breath work - this week I have been noticing the sounds of my breathes, and how it changes. The diaphragmatic breathing, especially the So-Ham breathing method, is explained in Kundalini Vidya and elsewhere (see YouTube for lots of takes on how to do this). At various times I notice my breathing pattern move into So Ham and then eventually reverse (Ham So). I notice that this tends to create a bit of internal suction, pulling up (somatically up through my chest and throat to head / out) physical trauma patterns from my chest and upper digestion. The “sound” of So and Ham is for me mostly about a specific hear/feeling in my chest. The sound also changes. The mental chanting does not work too much for me, as the goal right now is to tell the body lead, so I’m just witnessing what’s there.

Intuitive eating - another notice this week was a heightened somatic sensation around food choices. I noticed that I was able to feel a tightness or openness in my throat as I thought about or held a food option. The tightness was a “no” and the openness indicated a “yes”. This made “intuitive eating” especially easy this week. I suspect the work on de-armoring the throat in the last kriya session is related. 

Subtle body / dream work - In a dream it was suggested that I switch to a liquid diet with lots of juices for this phase, while my digestion is especially disturbed, to take stress off the system. I’m trying that to good success so far, though this is a significant increase in my typical sugar intake (via fruit) which feels odd. Perhaps the easy energy is helpful right now. Just in observation / trial mode for the moment.

Some external validation - In my searching for info regarding the one-letter mantras of Saharara, I was thrilled to find this little comment. I feel validated in my little experiment, and hope to find future collaborators.

"How these exercises are connected with the rousing of the Kundalini is a matter for research, though various attempts are being made to explain their action on the nervous plex-uses, they are generally based on vague speculations. Unfortunately we have yet no institution worth the name where a batch of ardent and sincere students with a good knowledge of anatomy and physiology with their Kundalini aroused could take up the research work in that direction. Generally anatomists and physiologists are quite ignorant of and indifferent to this sphere of study."

-- Devatma Shakti Kundalini Power, pg 83

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Citations

Tănăsescu, Mihnea. Ecocene Politics. Open Book Publishers, 2022. https://www.openbookpublishers.com/books/10.11647/obp.0274.

javanesegraviton. Devatma Shakti Kundalini Power Swami Vishnu Tirtha. Accessed June 18, 2025. http://archive.org/details/DevatmaShaktiKundaliniPowerSwamiVishnuTirtha.

Tags: Biblio, Kriyas, Yoga